New Month, Bad Beginings

So, this week has been one heck of a bad one.  One of my distant uncles died (last week), a close friend of my brothers died Saturday, my dad lost his job yesterday and I found out that my cousin tried to commit suicide.  

While all of this has made my week go down hill, there is something to be learned. 

1) Never give up. No matter how much life throws at you and how horrible it can be.  It can either get worse or get better.  Don't worry or stress about it too much.  A wise quote says "life is what happens when you are busy making plans."

2) Be happy.  I am a very happy and optimistic person and even with everything that has happened, I can not stay upset for very long.  

3) Find a way to cope.  My method is music.  Whenever something happens, good or bad, music is always with me.  It helps me with everything.  When I am angry, I listen to angry songs.  Sad, then sad songs are playing.  The help me with my emotions and soothe me. 

4) Talk about it.  I know that everyone always says this and I hate it. They are right though.  I do not like talking about my problems but I will write about them.  I have gotten better about letting people know what is going on in my life.  It is difficult but the rewards are amazing.  It lets you know who your friends are and how much they care.  

5) Love.  The best and most painful thing to do is to love.  It can be the love you have for friends, family or your significant other.  Let them know.  Never be afraid to let people know that you care about them.  It can make all the difference in the world.  Yeah, it hurts when you get rejected, but when it is reciprocated, it is the most wonderful feeling in the world.

Pain is inevitable.  I have had to deal with so much since I was a kid.  I know that it could be worse and I have been blessed in my life with a lot of stuff.  But I want to tell about my life so that others can understand where I am coming from. 

Before the age of 18, I have had numerous pets die on me, both parents in and out of the hospital, my grandmother die right before my birthday when I was 4, a brother that was abusive and a mother who was not the best either, my uncle commit suicide, my grandfather and an uncle die of cancer, another uncle died from old age, my mom suffer 3 heart attacks and more health problems than I can list, two of my friends almost die in a car accident, a friend from work died, a couple people I knew in high school died in an accident and more family members and friends of family members lost.

Then, within the last year and a half, my parents went through a really nasty divorce.  Two more family members gone, our old next door neighbor who was like a grandmother to me died, my dad found out he has a heart condition, said condition causing him to collapse and he might have had a stroke, doctors are not sure what to do and how to help him, and now with what has happened in the last week, one could say that it has been overwhelming.  

I won't go into details but it was a rough life.  However, so many wonderful things have occurred and have made me into the person that I am today.   I am so thankful for everyone and everything in my life.  It has been a blessing.

I decided to write this in order to help others.  If any one needs to talk or to vent, I will be here. Leave me a comment and I will be glad to help. 

Please remember, suicide is not the only option left at the end of a bumpy road.  If you need help, tell someone.  I guarantee you that you are not the only one left or the only one who cares.  Thanks.